“You just want me to text you so you can dream about me again.” I joke, hoping to lighten the mood before she goes.
She giggles as she hops out of the truck. “Goodbye, Sexy Sawyer.”
“Grace!” I call out before she can close the door. I need to know one more question before letting her go. “Who did you live with afterwards?”
I immediately regret asking when a pain so sharp hits her eyes that I feel it stab me in the fucking heart. It takes her a second to answer, and what she says next is something I will never forget:
“With the devil.”
Without another word she closes my truck door, and leaves me with a pain I have never known, and I’ve fucking known pain like no other.
The next day I’m sitting in Julia’s kitchen, relaying last night’s events to her and Kayla. “I’m serious, I’ve never seen him like that before. I’m tellin’ ya, Julia, he could have given Jaxson a run for his money in the anger department.”
“He should have cut the little fucking pervert’s hand off,” Kayla states heatedly.
“I’m just glad he was there for you, but yeah, that surprises me. I’ve never seen that side of him either. I didn’t know he had it in him to get like that.”
“For who to get like what?” Jaxson asks, walkin’ in looking his typical sexy self. Boy he really is one fine specimen. He walks over and kisses Julia on her forehead. Even though I’m so happy for my friend a small pang of jealousy hits me, wishing I had that. Not Jaxson of course, but someone who loved me like he does her. I’ve never seen anyone love someone like that, well except for Cooper and Kayla.
“We’re talking about Sawyer,” Julia replies, and proceeds to tell him about my eventful night.
Jaxson looks at me, frowning. “Why were you there by yourself so late?”
Of course he would react just like Sawyer. “Because I sent Mac home; he was so sick. I knew Sawyer was gonna be there soon, so I didn’t worry.”
“Grace says he got so angry he could have given you a run for your money,” Julia says amused. “I didn’t know Sawyer could get like that.”
Jaxson grunts, “Oh yeah, he can. The only difference between us is it takes more to push him to that point, but once you do, get the fuck out of the way.”
I nod my head at the girls. “See? I’m tellin’ ya, it was crazy.”
Chuckling, Jaxson leans down, kissing his wife again and rubs her cute little tummy. “I’m heading to the gym, baby. I’ll be back in a couple hours.” He looks over at Kayla and me, “Are you girls going to stay with her?”
Julia rolls her eyes. “I don’t need babysitting, Jax, they can leave when they want. I’ll be fine.” Jaxson scowls, clearly not agreeing with her.
“Grace and I plan to be here for a while yet,” Kayla says, reassuring him.
“Good. Call me when they leave and I’ll come back.” He kisses her one last time and heads out the door.
“Lord that man can be overbearing,” Julia says, with no heat, staring at the door he just walked out of. Anyone can see how much she loves the over-protective maniac.
“What else is new?” Kayla replies.
“Yeah, but he’s gotten worse since Wyatt.”
We all become quiet, thinking about the awful event that happened a few months ago. I reach over and squeeze Julia’s hand; Kayla joins too.
“Well I think it’s real sweet how protective he is of you. I know it probably drives you crazy, but I’d give anything for someone to love me like that. The only one who has ever shown me a love like that was my Mama.”
Giving me a sad smile, Julia gives my own hand a gentle squeeze back.
Kayla breaks up the heavy moment. “Okay enough stalling, spill it, Grace. What is going on with you and sexy ass?” she asks with a curious smile.
I look away, trying not to blush. “Nothin’ is goin’ on with us. He showed up earlier in the week and started walkin’ me home at night. Said he wanted to get to know me better, since we are both close with Jaxson and Julia.”
Kayla’s smile turns knowingly. “He’s fucking lying. He likes you.”
“I agree with Kayla.”
I shrug, “I’m not too sure about that, but I have enjoyed gettin’ to know him. There’s more to him than I realized. He isn’t just all beauty and arrogance.”
“No shit?” Kayla asks, seeming surprised by the fact.
We all chuckle, but I sober quickly. “Yeah, he can actually be quite sweet. He’s been real good to me; has said some awfully nice things,” I pause for a moment, before I confess, “I told him about my Mama. Also told him about my Dad too.”
“Holy shit, really?” Kayla asks in shock. Julia looks surprised as well. “I know. I was just as shocked. But he’s real easy to talk to.”
“Well that doesn’t surprise me. I’ve always known there’s more to Sawyer than his charm and insane good looks. He was amazing to me when Jaxson went off the deep-end about the baby.” Julia goes quiet for a minute then asks, “Did he tell you about when he, Cade and Jaxson were held captive?”
My eyes bug out and I shake my head, “No! They were?”
I knew Jaxson had gotten hurt in the line of duty, but I didn’t know it was that awful. Julia’s eyes fill with sadness, “Yes. I don’t know much of the story, and, to be honest, I don’t want to either. It was real awful, and Jaxson bears some very horrendous scars from it. I imagine both Sawyer and Cade bear the same ones.”
My heart becomes heavy and my stomach twists at the thought of someone hurting Sawyer… or any of the guys for that matter.
We all sit in a gloomy silence now, and I decide to drop another bombshell on them: “I contacted my father.” Both of their heads snap up in surprise at me. “I sent him a letter last week because I was too scared of being rejected in person. But his assistant called me yesterday; he wants to meet me for supper tomorrow night. His driver is pickin’ me up at seven.” I smile, feeling happy he didn’t reject me.
Julia smiles back and reaches for my hand again. “That’s great, Grace.”
Kayla clears her throat nervously, “Grace, girl, you know I love you and I’m real happy for you. But… have you thought about if it doesn’t turn out the way you want it to? Not that I think it will, but I think you should just be prepared, in case it doesn’t. I don’t want you getting hurt.”
I nod, understanding her concern. “I have thought about it, but why else would he want to meet me? And I also think that if he doesn’t want me in his life, well… then nothing changes in mine, right?”
Reaching out, she places her hand over Julia’s and mine. “Right. He will be a fool if that’s the case, but I’m sure it isn’t. I’m sure he will know a good thing when he sees it.”
“Thanks, Kayla,” I respond quietly. Seriously these girls are the best.
I turn to address Julia now, “Ummm, Julia? Do you think it would be all right if I borrowed one of your nicer dresses again? This restaurant seems pretty fancy and I really want to make a good impression.”
“Of course you can, but, Grace, if you showed up in pajamas you would still make a good impression. Anyone who meets you knows you’re a special person, no matter what you’re wearing.”
“Damn straight,” Kayla adds.
My throat goes tight at their kind words. “Thanks y’all. I think you girls are pretty special too.”
We all smile at one another. “All right, enough of this sappy shit, let’s move on to a more fun topic, like getting Sawyer to give Grace her first big O.”
We burst out laughing at Kayla’s change of topic.
“Wait, hold that thought!” Kayla says, putting her hand up. “First thing I want to know is: how the hell have you not masturbated after reading the shit you do?” she asks in regards to the book I lent her.
I feel myself turn beet red. “I’m serious, Grace, that was some major sexy shit! You have got to give me more of it! Even Coop wants to thank you. I attacked the shit out of him every time I picked the damn thing up.”
Julia and I both chuckle. “This sounds juicy, Grace, I need to borrow it now.”
“Of course you can. It’s a real great love story.”
“And the sex is fucking hot!” Kayla adds. “Believe me, Grace, we need to get Sawyer going on this. The real thing is so much better than reading about it,” she says with a wink.
I laugh again, and I’m not going to lie, a sharp ache starts between my legs at the thought of Sawyer doin’ anything to me.
“What the fuck is with you, man? You have been in a weird fucking mood all day,” Jaxson asks as we screw in drywall at the gym. Cade and Cooper glance over at me, clearly wondering the same thing.
“I just have a lot of shit on my mind lately.”
Ever since Grace’s confession the other night, I’ve been in a bad mood. I try hiding it when I’m around her, but it’s fucking hard.
With the devil… Her words constantly replay in my head, making me conjure up all sorts of fucking terrible images at what that meant.