“Fuck!” I say, running my hands through my hair. “What in the hell am I going to do?”
“Nothing on your own. You need to take a crew with you. Men that know how to use their fist, but aren’t afraid of using fire power when needed.”
“What about you?” I ask.
He looks towards his daughter, anxiety flashing across his face. “I’d go man, but things didn’t go very good the last time I left Rosalie alone.”
I take a second to consider my options then lay my plan out to him. “What if she stays with Mindy and Chipper while you’re gone? You could come back every few weeks and talk to her on the phone every day.”
“I could do that, but I don’t know if Mindy’s up for taking care of her.”
“Jenna will be there too. She’ll help.”
He finally nods in agreement. “That could work.”
Within ten minutes, we’ve got it all settled. Mindy quickly agreed, seeming to be excited to have another kid in the house. Chipper seemed a little reluctant at first, but he relented as soon as he saw the excitement on Mindy’s face.
Jenna walks up, holding Pebbles hand, just as Reese and Mindy are ironing out the detailing. “What’cha talking about?”
A huge smile crosses Mindy’s face as she explains. “Rosalie is going to be staying with us for a while.”
“That’s cool.” Jenna says, looking down to Pebbles. “You can share my room with me.”
Pebbles seems excited about staying with Jenna, but her apprehension comes through when she looks at her dad. “Where are you going?”
Reese lays his hands on her head. “I’m going with Kidd on a road trip.”
“How long will you be gone?”
He crouches down in front of her. “I’m not sure, but I’ll come home to visit you as much as I can.”
She continues to question her dad, but I don’t hear a word she says. Instead, I’m stuck on Jenna’s reaction. She looks like she’s about to cry. It’s the same look she had on her face earlier. I see Mindy grab her hand and give it a squeeze, and I know it’s more than just a piece of dust in her eye.
I walk over to her and drop my arm around her shoulder, pulling her into my side. “What’s wrong, baby doll?”
“Where are you going?”
I have to tell her, because I know if I don’t, someone else will. I hate having to bring up bad memories for her. “I’m heading up to Mateland.”
As soon as the word leaves my mouth, her face turns white. “Why are you going there?”
“I can’t tell you that.”
She nods. “How long will you be gone?”
I bend down and kiss the top of her head. “Not long, I promise.”
Kidd said he wanted to take me out for one more ride before he left. It was fun, but it was also sad. I know it could very well be the last ride I ever take with him.
“I’m gonna miss you,” I say as I climb off of his bike for the last time.
“I won’t be gone long, darlin’,’’ Kidd says, smothering me in a warm bear hug.
“I don’t know why you’re the one that has to go,” I say for the hundredth time in the last two hours. Not only is Kidd, my best friend, leaving me, but he’s going to Mateland. I don’t know much about what’s going on, but the little I do know is from hearing Chipper and Mindy talk. Neither one of them is happy about sending Kidd four hours away to handle someone else’s shit, especially Mateland’s shit.
My biggest fear is that Kidd will figure out who I really am while he’s there. If he learns about my dad and figures out that Timmons claimed me in the past, he may have to send me back. I don’t think he’d want to, but I’m not sure he’d have much of a choice. He’s loyal to the club to a fault. Even though mom and I were kept away from the club, I still know for a fact that the club doesn’t interfere with a member’s personal life. If Kidd didn’t give me back, he would be sticking his nose somewhere that it didn’t belong and going against everything he believes in.
I have to fight myself to keep from begging him not to go. I don’t want to lose Kidd, and I don’t want to see the look on his face when he finds out about my past. I’ve grown to love Kidd over the last few months, but Mindy says that it’s just puppy love and I’ll grow out of it as I get older. But deep down, I know she’s wrong.
I also know Kidd doesn’t feel the same way as I do. He thinks of me as a sister. Hell, he even introduced me as his little sis today. I can’t help but wish that his opinion will change of me someday, but I know that’s not going to happen if he goes to Mateland. I pull in a deep breath and try to be brave. “Will you call me?”
He gives me a tight squeeze. “You know I will, baby doll, and I’ll do my best to call you at least once a week. If I’m lucky, it won’t take but a month or two, and then I’ll be home.”
I nod and pull away from him. “Well, go on then. Quit being such a cry baby.”
A sad smile crosses his face and he lifts his hand to wipe the stray tears from my face.
“See-ya soon, Jenna.”
As soon as he starts to ride away, I run into the house and go straight to my room. I plant myself on my bed and break into sobs. I’m crying so loud that I don’t hear my door open. I don’t even notice Mindy until she sits beside me. She pulls me into her arms and whispers, “Quit crying, sweet heart. He’ll be home before you know it.”
I shake my head then burrow deeper into her arms. “You don’t understand. He’s going to send me back.”
She squeezes me so tightly that she takes my breath away. “There is no way Kidd would ever do that.”
“He won’t have a choice.”
She pulls back and places her hands on my face, moving it so she can look into my eyes. “What are you talking about?”
“I’m Timmons’ old lady,” I say between sobs.
“What?” She asks in a near shout.
“Timmons told everyone that I was his old lady, so Kidd will have to send me back to him. It’s club rules,” I try to explain, still crying.
Mindy’s body starts to shake with anger. “Jenna girl, you listen to me. You are sixteen years old. You’re not old enough to be anyone’s old lady. If Timmons so much as mentions that he’s claimed you, Kidd will kill him.”
I shake my head, not understanding. “But there are a lot of girls there who are my age. Some of them are even younger. They wear tattoos with members’ names on them and everything,” I say, motioning toward the ‘Property of Chipper” tattoo that Mindy proudly displays on her arm.
The anger on her face is replaced with shock. “Oh, sweet Lord.”
She jumps up and starts to pace the room. “Did Chipper know about this?”
I don’t get a chance to respond before she answers her own question. “Of course, he didn’t. If he did, the club would’ve been burned to the ground.”
I stay quiet as she continues to pace back and forth alongside my bed. I want to tell her to calm down, especially since she doesn’t need to be so upset. It isn’t good for her. She’s been so sick the last week that she’s barely gotten out of bed. I’m not sure what’s wrong with her, but whatever it is, it has to be bad. Thank God, Chipper finally convinced her to go to the doctor. She went in and had some tests a few days ago, and she has to go back Monday for the results. I want to go with her, but Chipper said he’s going. For some reason, they don’t want me there. At first, it hurt my feelings, but then I realized they were trying to protect me. That’s when I really got scared.
Mindy walks towards me, bringing my thoughts back to the situation at hand. “Don’t say anything about Timmons to anyone. Let Kidd deal with it.”
“What if he has no choice but to send me back?” I ask, fear running thick through my voice.
She shakes her head. “That won’t happen.”
“But, what….” I start to ask again, but she quickly cuts me off.
“If anyone tries to take you from me, we will run so fucking far away that no one will ever find us,” she says defiantly before pulling me from the bed and into her arms.
I spend most of my ride to Mateland thinking about Jenna. Getting away from Big Clifty might be a good thing, ‘cause Lord knows that I need some space from her. She’s too fuckin’ young for me. The fucked up part is I still want her. The more I’m around her, the more I feel the need to claim her. Fuck! I feel like a damn pervert just thinking about that shit.